I didn’t find a substitute job for today but that’s okay because I took the time to look at my life, as a whole. What was missing, what I am thankful for, where I am presently and where I want to be in the future. Besides Hans, there is one thing that has been missing from my life for the past few months: yoga.
Life got in the way and I neglected my yoga practice, probably when I needed it most. I was stressed about my temporary move to Oklahoma, I was stressed entertaining Hans’ family, I was stressed thinking about my husband job training abroad, I was just stressed. Why did I neglect my yoga practice? I still made exercise a part of my daily life but I pushed my practice to the back of my mind. I believe that I needed a release like running when I was pissed off. You see, yoga brings not only physiological benefits but psychological as well. Yoga makes us feel. I didn’t want to feel, I just wanted to be angry.
But, that is all over now. I am temporarily living in Tulsa. Hans is on the other side of the Atlantic and I have to deal with it. I am ready for my yoga practice again. So, I lit some beautiful candles.
I sat down on my yoga mat, and I told myself to just breathe. And I did. I was ready.
I was stiff. So stiff and tight all over my body. It was not happy with me, but it will be. I will gradually get back into my practice. Today, I did a 30 min yogadownload. It was exactly what I needed. Slow enough for my body to realize what it had gotten itself into but not too slow that I got bored.
Do you tend to neglect things in life when you need them the most? I can honestly say that I do. Sometimes I just want to be miserable and feel sorry for myself. But not anymore.